Can you imagine even living in my state of mind
Where day to day stress should have left me blind
But I aint blind
No one can pull wool over ma eyes
All day I’m lettin’ out sighs
Lettin go of all my highs
Like when I’d OD on the prescription pills
Felt like I could climb all the hills
But they’ll never let me into heaven
Maybe they would have when I was seven
But since then its been shit
To ciggerettes I want lit
How about weed
Will that encourage me to take the lead
In my life
And make decisions
And create visions
Of a better future
Caffeiene excited my mind
To the point where I race
My thoughts like its a chase
But I hate the chase
I’d rather choke myself with a lace
Or slash myself in the face
And I’m not acting with haste
I want to do as I please
Like all people do with ease
But I’ll never get into E’s
I’d end up down on my kness
Riddled with flees
Why do I struggle with facebook
Like I’m a freak with a hook
I aint even a crook
I aint get a second look
Or give myself time for a book
But I do care about my look
I wana work with my rhymes
So I’ll have cash for fines
And they’ll be no more whines
I’ll feel complete
And worthy
But I aint never felt worthy
Its like I’m different
Like I aint heaven sent
Or heaven bound
I’m a go into the ground
Will I suffer like a hound
Till I can’t make a sound
I would always cry for help
I would always wana be found
But enuf of that crap
Wakin in the am tough to not go back for a nap
Alice wants to sit on my lap
I’ve been called weird
I don’t walk the streets in a beard
I don’t even wana be feared
I’m better then alot
Its just I don’t have the lot
Or speak my mind
Or friends I’d find
Its like a clock I gotta wind
And keep ticking
That’s enuf for now
I feel full like a cow
But how?!
I’m told I aint fat
I wana be slim like my cat
Friends I gotta find
So the shit don’t play on my mind
Do people ignore that I’m kind
Or don’t know I exist?
So I gotta write a list
Of people I want to make impression with my fist
But I gotta chill
And not go in for the kill
Just make my life a thrill
Or bearable
Perhaps even shareable